Week Two - 13 - 19 January 2009---CONFUSION

Week of Confusion
If Week One is about Committment then Week 2 is definitely about Confusion:

Do I REALLY WANT to do this??
Who am I kidding?

No way I can go longer than a week without dip.

Maybe I can??....

I'm confused and in a fog.

As the nicotine began to lift from my body I was dazed and confused.
I saw it in the posts I saw as well from my fellow quitters.

The challenge is to break through the CONFUSION.

This is NOTHING to be confused about and revert back to your new found committment that you had in Week 1 when you decided to quit this nasty habit.

Your CONFUSION will disappear and the light will shine..........

RULE FOR WEEK #2: Battle through the CONFUSION. Your commitment is still valid and strong. Move to Week 3 and prepare for Community

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Highlights/Posts and thoughts for this week

I took a look at my car to prepare for a road trip this week. My car is a wreck. Still spit cans hid under the seats. If I could vacuum up all the snuff on the floor mats or seats I would have a roll of Copenhagen. It's sick. Can you believe I did this shit. I would take my wife out on a date in this car. How in the hell could she stand it. I know she hated it.

During this week I returned back from my road trip to West Virginia.

My father had been hospitalized and we thought it was the end. He had been delirious and his large intestine was poisoning him. He began to improve during my visit but there was a lot of stress.

I was using the fake stuff pretty heavily. It helped.

When I returned to CT I had continual visits to the Dentist for work. Also I was focused on looking for a new job since I had been laid off at the end of the year. Try sitting behind a desk all friggin day looking at a computer screen without a dip!!

Basically this is where I was ready to quit quitting. If it weren't for posting roll every day then I'd have been gone. I also started keeping statistics on the members of the April HOF. I had to frigging do something or I'd lose my mind. It kept me glued to the site all day and updating my stupid spreadsheet. Ultimately, I thought it was good and I had positive comments from other members. Those that were'nt posting hated me though. Fuck them. Most of them Caved anyway.

WHAT WAS HAPPENING ON THE SITE THAT WEEK

Do you guys remember during this week there was A LOT OF funny discussion on what we were going to name the group?? Funny shit.

I've included some of those posts here

This was also the week that I was exposed to JPINE!

Here's some of my favorite posts that week

imaquitter
This one was great from imaquitter. Great realization.

Posted: Jan 13, 2009, 5:23 am
today is gonna be a good day. why? you ask, because today is another day that i will not falter in my goal of not using tobacco. it is a day of joy. last nite i was in chat. this guy came in and was thinkin about quittin. i know i havent been here long, but man, i went off on the dude. not cussin him or anything, but tellin him theres a whole different world out there, one without dip. anyway, i went on for about 5 minutes with this guy, it felt great. hopefully he'll be back. to this wonderful world of quit. anyhoo, just wanted to share that, thanksimaquitter
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Chinese proverb: The journey of a thousand miles begins with a single stepQuit date 1-1-09
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Jpine

This one made me fucking howl!!
Posted: Jan 13, 2009, 10:22 am
QUOTE (Daniel_J @ Jan 13, 2009, 9:14 am)
but now i know where am at and where i wanna be and ya'll will be there with me until then...

Jpine: you are on your knees in front of me, and you will be there until then
Posted: Jan 13, 2009, 11:50 am
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Redtrain
Sound philosophy from Redtrain

Posted: Jan 13, 2009, 12:07 pm
QUOTE (tfurrh @ Jan 13, 2009, 10:51 am)
QUOTE (BigDBingo @ Jan 13, 2009, 9:50 am)
Ok guys, I'm in. Today is my quit. Killed a can of pouches yesterday, bummed a dip off my brother last night, and woke up this morning determined to kill this habit. I was able to avoid my usual shower dip this morning, and so far havent had a work dip yet today. i have three pieces of super strong gum packed in where the dip would be, feeling the minty burn. I think this quit will be my final quit.BigD

this will be your final quit. welcome to April.

Redtrain: Don't think, thinking gets you in trouble, just quit.
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Bengalgirl

Here's where we contemplated the name Ass Bandits!! I think Rooster almost fucking quit over that one!!!Posted: Jan 13, 2009, 3:25 pm
QUOTE (Remshot @ Jan 13, 2009, 1:19 pm)
QUOTE (mule21 @ Jan 13, 2009, 1:18 pm)
QUOTE (WhoDey @ Jan 13, 2009, 2:13 pm)
QUOTE (Big Brother Jack @ Jan 13, 2009, 2:09 pm)
QUOTE (edromero @ Jan 13, 2009, 2:07 pm)
QUOTE (jpine @ Jan 13, 2009, 1:04 pm)
QUOTE (Armypatt @ Jan 13, 2009, 2:00 pm)
So I had an idea and wanted to see what all of you think.A lot of boards or groups have nick names. Like March, the group before us is playing off the Irish theme.So I thought since we're April and in life there are 2 certainties, death and taxes.And April 15 is Tax day (Which just happens to be my HOF day!!!!!)We could play off that theme.Just a thought.

are you asking for suggestions? i would be more than happy to help

i gotta hear this...let it rock, jp

* BBJ pulls up a chair and is ready for the show .....

ASS BANDITS!!!!

RICK ROLL'S RAIDERShttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oHg5SJYRHA0
April's Ass Bandits does have a nice ring to it.

this will be twice i have been deemed an ass bandit.. last time for a brief period.
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Jpine

Again Jpine nails it!!!

Posted: Jan 13, 2009, 4:24 pm
QUOTE (imaquitter @ Jan 13, 2009, 3:22 pm)
not everyone is an ass clown, and i dont want to be one

you a butt pirate quitter?

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Rooster

Sorry but I removed my name from the roll call of April butt pirates...thats not who I signed up with. It will remain off any and all roll calls until this shit stops. I can take a joke and name calling in a joking way as well as anybody, and if you knew me, probably better than most of you, but ass bandits, assclowns and butt pirates are too degrading for me. I know this statement is like "taking my ball and going home" but sorry I don't have to be treated like shit by the ones who went before us -- especially when I am working on something positive. If I was a caver I would expect the childish name calling. I thought a lot of positive about this organization in the short time I have ben a member but it seems to be going down a path I do not want to travel. And trust me when I say I am not overly sensitive cuz I sure as hell ain't. ndrooster