JK17 - Hello all! I posted in May 09 but I guess I am supposed to be here. 1 week quit.
JK17 - Day 8 - nic free today!
JK - 10. Welcome the double the digits.
PbKid - Introduction
I've chewed tobacco for 27 years. I'm about to turn 42. Copenhagen was a quarter when I started. I guess it was baseball, but I was never really all that good a center fielder, anyway. Can't even play anymore, the pathology of my right shoulder might fill an entire semester at med school. Time marches on.
I'm an engineer - work in an office like Dilbert. I have a wife I'm still in love with and two great kids, 8 and 10. The youngest is autistic - his diagnosis brought me to my knees and to the edge of life. Both of my brothers and my father-in-law are alcoholics with about a billion years of sobriety between them. I realized not long ago that none of my friends chew any more - just sort of evolved that way without me noticing. You see, I have every reason to quit and, moreover, to succeed at it.
All behavior has a payoff, a reason behind it. I chewed because it made me feel less anxious. But the habit itself also made me anxious. The Quit has been one of those things I know I gotta do but would rather just ignore. I've been avoiding it for so long now. It nags and gnaws at me. Now my number's up. Events past and present bring my level of angst to new heights. The payoff for quitting has grown to be bigger than the payoff for chewing.
I don't know how to tune an engine, clean gutters, play golf, or ski without a dip in my mouth. Thinking about these and a hundred other similar activities without chew pretty much blows. That's why I'm here. I plan to take it one day at a time and when I get to those days I'll be asking for help. Thanks for the offer.
PbKid - 1 - I want this bad.
PbKid – 2
PBKid
Hola.
Since I can remember, it's always been the same. 1. brush teeth, 2. pack one, 3. turn on the shower & clean fingers off. Today I decided to do something different.
I've also decided to suffer with like-minded people today. Yeah, you guessed it, I'm going to work. I work in an cube farm, Dilbert-style. Nobody there chews. I plan to tell 'em I don't feel well (thanx beaver).
I've also decided to give my word to a bunch of like-minded people I don't know that I will not chew today. Wings are re-entry red hot but I'm not gonna chew today.
PbKid - I have one other matter to report at this time.
I pass a house coming into our neighborhood that sits atop a hill with a very large flag of the United States of America on a really big post. It's the guy that started Sage, if you are familiar with the fly fishing equipment.
Anyway, for the last week or so I've been seeing that flag waving in the breeze on the way home from work and my mind *snaps* the image ---> Ready.
So, it's kinda cool because I think about Ready, KTC, being quit, and freedom pretty much every day coming home now - about 2 minutes after passing the c store I used to frequent.
Keep quit.
QUOTE (edromero @ Jan 20, 2009, 12:48 pm)
QUOTE (quit_aug_27_08 @ Jan 20, 2009, 2:17 pm)
You will move past the crave ND - it's tough and no one is denying it.
ive sed this bfore, and ill say it again because it helps me... i know its tough.
but whenever i think its tough, i think of that hiker who cut off his own arm with a pocketknife when he got trapped under a boulder for 3 days.
what would you endure if your life depended on it?
how tough do we really have it?
10 years from now, with the "tough times" matter to us anymore? probably not.
fuck it. bring on the pain.
PbKid - Bring it.
PbKid - day 3
PbKid - 4 - not today either
PbKid - 5 - It's fun to quit. No chew today.
what's the best thing about being quit?
PbKid - Not worrying about quitting
2jet - Hello to all!
This is my first day on this site and today was day 1 of my quit.
It's been a bitch of a day so far. I've never been so irritable and lightheaded. I feel like I can't keep a thought in my head for more than a few seconds. I know it will get better, but it's been a long day.
I was a Cope man for over 15 years. 4 to 5 cans a week. I would beat myself up all the time for not having the "balls" to quit that shit. Everytime I would try and quit I would come up with some lame excuse for postponing my quit. "it's to stressful at work right now"..... "not until after vacation" etc. etc...
I'm committed this time and will be posting roll tomorrow morning.
I look forward to quitting with the rest of you.
Regards,
Matt (2jet)
2jet - Day 2. This site is great. I never thought I could do it before, but now I have hope.
2jet - Day 3. Fighting with the Nic bitch today, but I'm gonna kick her ass.
2jet - Day 4. Yesterday sucked. Feel better this morning. No nic for me today.
2jet - Day 4. I got edited out for some reason a few posts ago. I'm still here
camojfk day 1
Camojfk - Day 1 ***Welcome Camo--please don't try to fix what's been fixed before you figure out what you broke!! You're doin' GREAT! Welcome aboard!!
Note by TCOPE: If you ever look back at Camo's 1st post it fucked up roll royally! Quitting Time fixed it
camojfk day 2
camojfk #3
camojfk #4 1st weekend down
camojfk - QUIT DIPPING OR GET THE FUCK OUT
camojfk #5 put up or shut up/quitter 4 life
This is my first day on this site and today was day 1 of my quit.
It's been a bitch of a day so far. I've never been so irritable and lightheaded. I feel like I can't keep a thought in my head for more than a few seconds. I know it will get better, but it's been a long day.
I was a Cope man for over 15 years. 4 to 5 cans a week. I would beat myself up all the time for not having the "balls" to quit that shit. Everytime I would try and quit I would come up with some lame excuse for postponing my quit. "it's to stressful at work right now"..... "not until after vacation" etc. etc...
I'm committed this time and will be posting roll tomorrow morning.
I look forward to quitting with the rest of you.
Regards,
Matt (2jet)
2jet - Day 2. This site is great. I never thought I could do it before, but now I have hope.
2jet - Day 3. Fighting with the Nic bitch today, but I'm gonna kick her ass.
2jet - Day 4. Yesterday sucked. Feel better this morning. No nic for me today.
2jet - Day 4. I got edited out for some reason a few posts ago. I'm still here
camojfk day 1
Camojfk - Day 1 ***Welcome Camo--please don't try to fix what's been fixed before you figure out what you broke!! You're doin' GREAT! Welcome aboard!!
Note by TCOPE: If you ever look back at Camo's 1st post it fucked up roll royally! Quitting Time fixed it
camojfk day 2
camojfk #3
camojfk #4 1st weekend down
camojfk - QUIT DIPPING OR GET THE FUCK OUT
camojfk #5 put up or shut up/quitter 4 life
BigDBingo - Ok guys, I'm in. Today is my quit. Killed a can of pouches yesterday, bummed a dip off my brother last night, and woke up this morning determined to kill this habit. I was able to avoid my usual shower dip this morning, and so far havent had a work dip yet today. i have three pieces of super strong gum packed in where the dip would be, feeling the minty burn. I think this quit will be my final quit.
BigDBingo - Day 1. thanks for having me.
BigDBingo - Day 2 - Doin fine so far. Yesterday was tough, but I made it. I am stronger than Skoal.
BigDBingo - Day 3, no worries.
ScubaSteve - Quit Day 2, first day here though.
Hello all. I began my quit Tuesday night on the way home from work. I thought to myself..."why is it that I can tell my wife all my secrets, my passions, my worries, my desires....but you won't tell her this one other piece of your life. I don't know if I'm the only one out there who's done the same, but I have used the junk for 7 years. My wife knew about me doing it a month after we started dating. I told her I would quit and did so for 9 months. Went hunting, started dipping again. I have since been married (almost 2 years). She doesn't know I do this.
What kind of pathetic POS's are we to try to hide something from our spouses? Something so major! Something that will kill us! I guess for me it's cause I know my wife told me (when we were dating) that if I ever started doing it again she would break up with me. Now we're married and I know she won't leave me over it anymore, but it kills me to think of how it will make her feel when she knows I am an addict.
I had a year long stint in law enforcement. I don't feel any better than the crackheads and dopefiends that I busted up. Hell, I even stole cans from my college roomate at A&M. Pathetic.
This is my "declaration of dependence". I've confessed my wrongdoings to a bunch of strangers, and tonight I confess my lies to my wife. I'm definitely doing this for myself. The last time I tried, I did ok for 9 months, but that was because it was instigated by a threat from my girlfriend.
Good people, keep me accountable, and I will do my best to do the same for you. And to the vets, I've read through your HOF speeches, and some of the admin posts, and I want to thank you in advance because this is the support I need.
SWJ - Day #2 - I've never tried to quit before, but am somehow convinced that I can do it on the first try... We shall see.
SWJ - Day #3 No Worries.
SWJ - Day #4.
BigDBingo - Day 1. thanks for having me.
BigDBingo - Day 2 - Doin fine so far. Yesterday was tough, but I made it. I am stronger than Skoal.
BigDBingo - Day 3, no worries.
ScubaSteve - Quit Day 2, first day here though.
Hello all. I began my quit Tuesday night on the way home from work. I thought to myself..."why is it that I can tell my wife all my secrets, my passions, my worries, my desires....but you won't tell her this one other piece of your life. I don't know if I'm the only one out there who's done the same, but I have used the junk for 7 years. My wife knew about me doing it a month after we started dating. I told her I would quit and did so for 9 months. Went hunting, started dipping again. I have since been married (almost 2 years). She doesn't know I do this.
What kind of pathetic POS's are we to try to hide something from our spouses? Something so major! Something that will kill us! I guess for me it's cause I know my wife told me (when we were dating) that if I ever started doing it again she would break up with me. Now we're married and I know she won't leave me over it anymore, but it kills me to think of how it will make her feel when she knows I am an addict.
I had a year long stint in law enforcement. I don't feel any better than the crackheads and dopefiends that I busted up. Hell, I even stole cans from my college roomate at A&M. Pathetic.
This is my "declaration of dependence". I've confessed my wrongdoings to a bunch of strangers, and tonight I confess my lies to my wife. I'm definitely doing this for myself. The last time I tried, I did ok for 9 months, but that was because it was instigated by a threat from my girlfriend.
Good people, keep me accountable, and I will do my best to do the same for you. And to the vets, I've read through your HOF speeches, and some of the admin posts, and I want to thank you in advance because this is the support I need.
SWJ - Day #2 - I've never tried to quit before, but am somehow convinced that I can do it on the first try... We shall see.
SWJ - Day #3 No Worries.
SWJ - Day #4.
This was one of my favorite posts by SWJ
SWJ - 16 Feb 2009
Yesterday, I decided to cave.
36 days ago, I decided to stop dipping, for the sake of my wife and two little boys. I used dip tobacco for years, and really, genuinely enjoyed it. However, three weeks ago I decided to stop, for the three most important people in my life.
And I did. Cold turkey. Frankly, it was pretty easy. I found the KTC site and posted every day, I read the posts from dudes who were having a really tough time with their Quit, and I posted a few words of encouragement. I had never tried to quit before, but I was really proud of having gone three weeks without any tobacco.
But yesterday I decided to cave.
My wife and two boys left for a week on vacation. This, my friends, would be prime dipping time - I could put a wad of Grizzly in, sit in front of the TV, and just enjoy it... I literally thought about it for a week. To be honest, I could hardly wait.
They left. I waved to them. And I made two more decisions...
I Will Always Be Stronger Than Any Vice. And I Will Never Cave.
The verbal abuse that I would get in my Quit Forum here on KTC doesn't scare me in the least - If I ever decided to cave, I just wouldn't show up here anymore.
But I would know.
I would know that I was weak. And I Am Not Weak.
I would know that I let my family down. And They Are Everything To Me.
I would know that I lied to my boys. And I Am The Greatest Dad Ever.
I am a husband.
I am a father.
I am a member of KTC April 2009.
And I Am A Quitter.
NKT - Day 1 - no nicotine for me today
NKT - Day 2 - insomnia rocks
NKT - Day 3 - Rooster get your ass back in here. Vets: lighten up a little, some of us might be just hanging on by a thread and it's not cool to fuck with us so early. Fire it up in a couple of weeks, we might have a sense of humor then.
NKT - 11 January 2009----After 12 years with a can-a-day-or-more copenhagen habit, I’m on day 12 of a quit using a very abbreviated nicoderm patch system (about one week on each “step”). I’ve had some serious withdrawls and cravings, but it’s getting better. I’ve run into a bit of a challenge today:
My wife and daughter just left town to visit family…
For six days.
Oh shit.
This is the time I’d usually take the can out of hiding and dip at will. What do I do now? Any suggestions on how to get through this would be much appreciated.
One other thing: would anyone be offended if I participate in the roll call if I stick to the patch program EXACTLY as outlined below?
12/31/08 – 1/9/09 21mg patch for 16 hours
1/10/08 – 1/16/08 14mg patch for 16 hours
1/17/08 – 1/23/08 7mg patch for 16 hours
The reasoning behind the patch program is that I can’t afford to be going through a set of really severe withdrawl symptoms because nobody in my life, aside from my wife, knows I used to chew, or that I’m quitting now. And even my wife doesn’t have any idea how bad my problem was/is. Being completely worthless for a couple of weeks just isn’t an option for me. But then again, going back to the can isn’t an option either. I’ve worked myself into a tough spot here; any advice or insights would be welcome.
11 January as posted by NKT - Thanks for the replies. Even with the patch, it still feels like I have a fuzzy blanket wrapped tightly around my brain, and I needed a little kick in the ass. It hadn’t occurred to me that six days alone could be an opportunity rather than a challenge.
Just took the patch off and tossed the rest in the trash. They served their purpose of breaking the getting-high-on-nicotine-every-couple-of-hours cycle; now it's time to move on.
Edromero: look at all the day 6's. everyone took their last dip ever on new years. excellent! here's to a nicotine free 2009, you bitchy-ass hoes.
Wildcat99 - Day 13 - Dear Skoal, "quien es su papa, biatch"
Our new year's quitters
"This shit fucking sucks. everything i do is drowned and hollowed out by a constant presence of anxiety and depression. And it fucking blows that the cure to all of shit bull shit i'm going through is just a little pinch of tobacco to stick in my lip. And what blows even more is to know I cant have that. fuckin shit man....fuckin shit. fuck! " - Barsky9, failed quitter in the FOQer group April 2009
imaquitter: day 7, need to go buy big thing of gum, it is getting easier
imaquitter: hello ppl, i signed up last night, this is day 7 for me, its been a tough but good week, lookin forward to many days and weeks and months, and years, of being dip free
Bengalsgirl08- Day 5..where is wildcat?
BigHoss44 - Day 5, headache and cloud gone but craving still there
BigHoss44 - Day 6, no dip today...will be back tomorrow!
RoyJester - day 5, first post, the weekend sucked.
Royjester: I don't like wagons either, they Fucking suck, dong.
RoyJester - 6 - Fuck Chewbie Snax
RoyJester - 7 - what a shitty week, can only get better I suppose, look forward to it
Royjester: I hadn't spit in a cup since being a Sophmore in H.S. I have given up coffee, mostly, becuase I always had my morning joe w/ a morning chewbie snak. Now I'm drinking tea, I hate tea but it's better than the craving.
RoyJester - 8 - one fuckin' week down, many many to go.
RoyJester - 9 - nuts
Moe Man is pushing all his chips in. Day 2 first time on here. What a freaking fog yesterday was.
ed-13. not a big deal. got other fish to fry (an' shit).
ron3775 day 1 (I actually quit at 9 p.m. on the 31st. This is the first I was able to log in since. I am feeling pretty good and felt great getting rid of the can!
ron3775 - day 3 and feeling great! I am welcoming the fog and glad the rage hasn't happened yet. I know it can happen at any moment. I am avoiding going into stores right now to help out.
Ron3775 - 4. I was out last night and had a few beers, But I stayed quit.
ron3775 - Day 5 I am back to work and doing fine. No craving for a dip for the ride in. Fog has lifted for now. Thanks to all.
Wildcat:
day #1 is over. sucked major ass but it is done. pretty big for me because i don't think i have ever stopped dipping for 24 hours (very pathetic and embarrassing to even admit). Tomorrow I do it again. What is interesting though is that i think my penis grew by an inch from not chewing today. if i would have known this was going to happen i would have quit years ago.
wildcat99-day 2... sucks like crazy but i will not chew today.
Wildcat99-Day 3... I've got "fog grand central" going on here. Not sure whether I am coming or going. The only thing I do know is that I am not dipping. I will not chew today.
Wildcat Day 3: Hey folks... hope everyone had a good day today. I am foggy as hell and sort of dizzy. Work was hilarious today. Mainly because I just stared at my computer all day. Really didn't accomplish much of anything. Too foggy to be productive, worked for me. See you all at roll call in the morning.
~bom-chica waa waa
Wildcat: Holy shitballs today is tough... went to a movie with my wife, wanted a chew. came home and had a phat ass bowl of spagehtti (and 2 beers), now i want a chew. Came here looking for support as I made a promise this morning to all of you that i will not chew today!! And, I won't--swear!! Gonna have some more silver bullet to take my mind off of my ex-friend (skoal longcut wintergreen).
Grrrrrrrrrr.
Wildcat99- day 4... this sucks. I'm not very nice right now and I hate that.
Wildcat:Day 1-3 suck very bad. I'm on day 4... feels like time is standing still. Everyone on here says it gets better... I've got to believe you, otherwise you wouldn't have stayed quit. So, I keep on keepin on. Realizing that "if it were easy, everyone would do it".
~Word
Wildcat99- Day 5. I'm not 100% sure but I think the fog may be gone (or at least lifted). This site is saving my a$$. My family is great, but you guys are fighting the same fight. Thanks for being there!!
Wildcat: Am I hallucinating or something??? I could have sworn I posted roll today--but, I don't see my name on the list anymore. What the heck? Oh well, bottom line, I'm not chewing today. But, for the record...................... I want to really bad.
Wildcat: And, I just screwed that post up... crap--sorry about that. Well, i guess i posted some kind of roll--even if i did it wrong. I'm tough as nails. Grr.
Wildcat: had a suck ass dream last night and woke up with my dog's rectum about 7 inches from my face. I blew her a kiss. Rectum? Damn near killed um...
Wildcat99-Day 6... still want to dip, but still not going to. quittin, that's how i roll.
Wildcat: Smokey, i wasn't tryin to steal your thunder there... i'm just still an idiot with the whole message board thing. DAMN, i'm tryin.
ob1541:
My names OB. I'm on day 2. I've dipped for 25 years. I've been on day 2 before and it is the same hell I remember. Quiting tobacco is the easist thing I've ever done. I've done it a thousands times. This is my first time using a "support group." Hopefully I won't be as pathetic as those "F's" on Celeb Rehab. Well I've put alot of thought into quiting this time. I've got to get this right. Sorry if this seems like a incoherant ramble but IM IN A F-ING FOG.
ob1541-day 3, don't "f" with me right now!
ob1541-day 6 "present" and accounted for
ndrooster1 - okay day 6 for me and brand new to this board. (hope I am doing this in the right place) - tobacco free since December 29-08 but had to buy a can of bacc off today to get through the triggers..feels like cheating to me but if it helps??! 34 years of being chained to the snuffqueen
ndrooster1 - okay - NO Baccy for me today - starting day 7..gonna face "the lions den" as I will be at a place with lots of triggers. Armed with my water, gum and as a last resort - a tin of BaccOff (yuck!)
Rooster: I am on day 7 and I know exactly what you mean by time standing still......it is some of the weirdest sh*t I have experienced in a long time and it is some of the most frustrating. However, I think today it sped up some - I actually had a hour and a half fly by - but those first 6 days were tough, and it made it near impossible to work in my shop/studio. Can't remember in the past 34 years of chewin that the days went by so slow.....and the nights, I don't know if it is because of all the water I am drinking or if its the body adjustiing but I am lucky to sleep 4 hours straight through before having to get up, pee and get another drink. Then lay there and toss till I finally fall back to sleep -- very weird dreams too. But I too am determined to quit so I anguish through these spells. Had to have a pinch of Baccoff herbal stuff tonite though. That kinda has me spooked. Are you sure it is okay to go that route or is cutting off everything the best way? Were any of you able to wean yourself off the herbal stuff easily or is that gonna be a struggle (psychologically I know - not physically).
ndrooster1--starting day 7 - posted my introduction this morning on whatever page that is.
ndrooster - day 8 - had a dip dream last night, woke up with my mouth all dried out and a headache. WTF? Will not succumb today.
SWJ - 16 Feb 2009
Yesterday, I decided to cave.
36 days ago, I decided to stop dipping, for the sake of my wife and two little boys. I used dip tobacco for years, and really, genuinely enjoyed it. However, three weeks ago I decided to stop, for the three most important people in my life.
And I did. Cold turkey. Frankly, it was pretty easy. I found the KTC site and posted every day, I read the posts from dudes who were having a really tough time with their Quit, and I posted a few words of encouragement. I had never tried to quit before, but I was really proud of having gone three weeks without any tobacco.
But yesterday I decided to cave.
My wife and two boys left for a week on vacation. This, my friends, would be prime dipping time - I could put a wad of Grizzly in, sit in front of the TV, and just enjoy it... I literally thought about it for a week. To be honest, I could hardly wait.
They left. I waved to them. And I made two more decisions...
I Will Always Be Stronger Than Any Vice. And I Will Never Cave.
The verbal abuse that I would get in my Quit Forum here on KTC doesn't scare me in the least - If I ever decided to cave, I just wouldn't show up here anymore.
But I would know.
I would know that I was weak. And I Am Not Weak.
I would know that I let my family down. And They Are Everything To Me.
I would know that I lied to my boys. And I Am The Greatest Dad Ever.
I am a husband.
I am a father.
I am a member of KTC April 2009.
And I Am A Quitter.
NKT - Day 1 - no nicotine for me today
NKT - Day 2 - insomnia rocks
NKT - Day 3 - Rooster get your ass back in here. Vets: lighten up a little, some of us might be just hanging on by a thread and it's not cool to fuck with us so early. Fire it up in a couple of weeks, we might have a sense of humor then.
NKT - 11 January 2009----After 12 years with a can-a-day-or-more copenhagen habit, I’m on day 12 of a quit using a very abbreviated nicoderm patch system (about one week on each “step”). I’ve had some serious withdrawls and cravings, but it’s getting better. I’ve run into a bit of a challenge today:
My wife and daughter just left town to visit family…
For six days.
Oh shit.
This is the time I’d usually take the can out of hiding and dip at will. What do I do now? Any suggestions on how to get through this would be much appreciated.
One other thing: would anyone be offended if I participate in the roll call if I stick to the patch program EXACTLY as outlined below?
12/31/08 – 1/9/09 21mg patch for 16 hours
1/10/08 – 1/16/08 14mg patch for 16 hours
1/17/08 – 1/23/08 7mg patch for 16 hours
The reasoning behind the patch program is that I can’t afford to be going through a set of really severe withdrawl symptoms because nobody in my life, aside from my wife, knows I used to chew, or that I’m quitting now. And even my wife doesn’t have any idea how bad my problem was/is. Being completely worthless for a couple of weeks just isn’t an option for me. But then again, going back to the can isn’t an option either. I’ve worked myself into a tough spot here; any advice or insights would be welcome.
11 January as posted by NKT - Thanks for the replies. Even with the patch, it still feels like I have a fuzzy blanket wrapped tightly around my brain, and I needed a little kick in the ass. It hadn’t occurred to me that six days alone could be an opportunity rather than a challenge.
Just took the patch off and tossed the rest in the trash. They served their purpose of breaking the getting-high-on-nicotine-every-couple-of-hours cycle; now it's time to move on.
Edromero: look at all the day 6's. everyone took their last dip ever on new years. excellent! here's to a nicotine free 2009, you bitchy-ass hoes.
Wildcat99 - Day 13 - Dear Skoal, "quien es su papa, biatch"
Our new year's quitters
"This shit fucking sucks. everything i do is drowned and hollowed out by a constant presence of anxiety and depression. And it fucking blows that the cure to all of shit bull shit i'm going through is just a little pinch of tobacco to stick in my lip. And what blows even more is to know I cant have that. fuckin shit man....fuckin shit. fuck! " - Barsky9, failed quitter in the FOQer group April 2009
imaquitter: day 7, need to go buy big thing of gum, it is getting easier
imaquitter: hello ppl, i signed up last night, this is day 7 for me, its been a tough but good week, lookin forward to many days and weeks and months, and years, of being dip free
Bengalsgirl08- Day 5..where is wildcat?
BigHoss44 - Day 5, headache and cloud gone but craving still there
BigHoss44 - Day 6, no dip today...will be back tomorrow!
RoyJester - day 5, first post, the weekend sucked.
Royjester: I don't like wagons either, they Fucking suck, dong.
RoyJester - 6 - Fuck Chewbie Snax
RoyJester - 7 - what a shitty week, can only get better I suppose, look forward to it
Royjester: I hadn't spit in a cup since being a Sophmore in H.S. I have given up coffee, mostly, becuase I always had my morning joe w/ a morning chewbie snak. Now I'm drinking tea, I hate tea but it's better than the craving.
RoyJester - 8 - one fuckin' week down, many many to go.
RoyJester - 9 - nuts
Moe Man is pushing all his chips in. Day 2 first time on here. What a freaking fog yesterday was.
ed-13. not a big deal. got other fish to fry (an' shit).
ron3775 day 1 (I actually quit at 9 p.m. on the 31st. This is the first I was able to log in since. I am feeling pretty good and felt great getting rid of the can!
ron3775 - day 3 and feeling great! I am welcoming the fog and glad the rage hasn't happened yet. I know it can happen at any moment. I am avoiding going into stores right now to help out.
Ron3775 - 4. I was out last night and had a few beers, But I stayed quit.
ron3775 - Day 5 I am back to work and doing fine. No craving for a dip for the ride in. Fog has lifted for now. Thanks to all.
Wildcat:
day #1 is over. sucked major ass but it is done. pretty big for me because i don't think i have ever stopped dipping for 24 hours (very pathetic and embarrassing to even admit). Tomorrow I do it again. What is interesting though is that i think my penis grew by an inch from not chewing today. if i would have known this was going to happen i would have quit years ago.
wildcat99-day 2... sucks like crazy but i will not chew today.
Wildcat99-Day 3... I've got "fog grand central" going on here. Not sure whether I am coming or going. The only thing I do know is that I am not dipping. I will not chew today.
Wildcat Day 3: Hey folks... hope everyone had a good day today. I am foggy as hell and sort of dizzy. Work was hilarious today. Mainly because I just stared at my computer all day. Really didn't accomplish much of anything. Too foggy to be productive, worked for me. See you all at roll call in the morning.
~bom-chica waa waa
Wildcat: Holy shitballs today is tough... went to a movie with my wife, wanted a chew. came home and had a phat ass bowl of spagehtti (and 2 beers), now i want a chew. Came here looking for support as I made a promise this morning to all of you that i will not chew today!! And, I won't--swear!! Gonna have some more silver bullet to take my mind off of my ex-friend (skoal longcut wintergreen).
Grrrrrrrrrr.
Wildcat99- day 4... this sucks. I'm not very nice right now and I hate that.
Wildcat:Day 1-3 suck very bad. I'm on day 4... feels like time is standing still. Everyone on here says it gets better... I've got to believe you, otherwise you wouldn't have stayed quit. So, I keep on keepin on. Realizing that "if it were easy, everyone would do it".
~Word
Wildcat99- Day 5. I'm not 100% sure but I think the fog may be gone (or at least lifted). This site is saving my a$$. My family is great, but you guys are fighting the same fight. Thanks for being there!!
Wildcat: Am I hallucinating or something??? I could have sworn I posted roll today--but, I don't see my name on the list anymore. What the heck? Oh well, bottom line, I'm not chewing today. But, for the record...................... I want to really bad.
Wildcat: And, I just screwed that post up... crap--sorry about that. Well, i guess i posted some kind of roll--even if i did it wrong. I'm tough as nails. Grr.
Wildcat: had a suck ass dream last night and woke up with my dog's rectum about 7 inches from my face. I blew her a kiss. Rectum? Damn near killed um...
Wildcat99-Day 6... still want to dip, but still not going to. quittin, that's how i roll.
Wildcat: Smokey, i wasn't tryin to steal your thunder there... i'm just still an idiot with the whole message board thing. DAMN, i'm tryin.
ob1541:
My names OB. I'm on day 2. I've dipped for 25 years. I've been on day 2 before and it is the same hell I remember. Quiting tobacco is the easist thing I've ever done. I've done it a thousands times. This is my first time using a "support group." Hopefully I won't be as pathetic as those "F's" on Celeb Rehab. Well I've put alot of thought into quiting this time. I've got to get this right. Sorry if this seems like a incoherant ramble but IM IN A F-ING FOG.
ob1541-day 3, don't "f" with me right now!
ob1541-day 6 "present" and accounted for
ndrooster1 - okay day 6 for me and brand new to this board. (hope I am doing this in the right place) - tobacco free since December 29-08 but had to buy a can of bacc off today to get through the triggers..feels like cheating to me but if it helps??! 34 years of being chained to the snuffqueen
ndrooster1 - okay - NO Baccy for me today - starting day 7..gonna face "the lions den" as I will be at a place with lots of triggers. Armed with my water, gum and as a last resort - a tin of BaccOff (yuck!)
Rooster: I am on day 7 and I know exactly what you mean by time standing still......it is some of the weirdest sh*t I have experienced in a long time and it is some of the most frustrating. However, I think today it sped up some - I actually had a hour and a half fly by - but those first 6 days were tough, and it made it near impossible to work in my shop/studio. Can't remember in the past 34 years of chewin that the days went by so slow.....and the nights, I don't know if it is because of all the water I am drinking or if its the body adjustiing but I am lucky to sleep 4 hours straight through before having to get up, pee and get another drink. Then lay there and toss till I finally fall back to sleep -- very weird dreams too. But I too am determined to quit so I anguish through these spells. Had to have a pinch of Baccoff herbal stuff tonite though. That kinda has me spooked. Are you sure it is okay to go that route or is cutting off everything the best way? Were any of you able to wean yourself off the herbal stuff easily or is that gonna be a struggle (psychologically I know - not physically).
ndrooster1--starting day 7 - posted my introduction this morning on whatever page that is.
ndrooster - day 8 - had a dip dream last night, woke up with my mouth all dried out and a headache. WTF? Will not succumb today.
